“You really won’t understand your life as a woman until you understand this:You are passionately loved by the God of the universe.
You are passionately hated by his Enemy.
And so, dear heart, it is time for your restoration. For there is One greater than your Enemy. One who has sought you out from the beginning of time. He has come to heal your broken heart and restore your feminine soul.” (Pg 91 of CAPTIVATING)
It is amazing to me the clarity that comes in the midst of battle. Clarity of mind which at times can be painful but very necessary. I know all to well that there is an enemy of my soul. I know that he desires to destroy me, not because of who I am but because of who my Father is! I also know that for generations before me he planted lies and caused problems. Yet as I walk down the shore I realize, my Father hears me, He gets me, He understands the battle, the consequences, the wounds and the wounded. He knows and in Him there is no condemnation! Wow. I am free to express myself with full animation, to empty out these chambers of my mind and soul. The closer I get to the parts I have locked away the closer and more intently He listens. It isn’t that He doesn’t already know what I am going to say, because He does. I am the one that doesn’t know, not fully, what words will come, what thoughts will crash on the shores of my mind and heart, but, He is ready. He is ready and at this moment in time I choose to trust in that. Not in my inability to out run the wave, sending me retreating up the shore, but today I choose to trust in the fact that with each wave there is a release and what is washed up on shore is moments later also washed away. Letting go of the things that have bound me is a little less scary when He is standing between me and the deep!