Archive | March 2012

Full heart

 Day 91 Project 365

This is an older picture of my little guy but this is the best picture describe my evening.  We spent a cold night at baseball field but Brett pitched a few great innings and one was even a shut out.  Tomorrow we have all day baseball.  Been a long, full, fun day. I am so tired and partial frozen.

So needless to say another quick post night tonight.

Again today I am reflective on the things that matter most.  I am thankful to be out of the chaos and instead of things running my life I am thankful to be in control and able to not get caught up.  I was able to talk with an old friend today and share some of the things God has brought me through this past year. I was encouraged by her and I was thankful that I have been set free from the things that had bound me before.

I was also able to have a good conversation with a new friend and share my heart and some things I have learned.

Most importantly this evening I am reminded of what amazing children I have. Full heart……I am so blessed to be their mom.  I am so thankful God choice me to be their mom.  Tonight as my 11-year-old came off the field and wrapped his arms around me and thanked me for being his mom and kissed me one of the boys said awww Brett and started to pick on him.  Brett turned and said what you jealous because my mom loves me and takes care of me…….:O) He kissed me again and gave me a huge hug.  I love it.  The texts and calls and hugs and thoughtfulness and wonderful memories and laughter I share with my children. I am blessed and it touches my heart to have others tell me what amazing kids I have and how much of a blessing and a joy they are.

Tonight I am so thankful.  So blessed.

Time for my quiet time and a hot cup of tea and heating blanket to get the feeling back in my toes from baseball.  Until tomorrow when more memories are made………Goodnight!


Quick note

Day 90 Project 365

Busy but beautiful day.  A little cooler but the sun was shining.    Very busy today so writing a little later than I like.

Lots I would like to write about but just not quite time yet.  Been working through some things this week and it has been good.

Doing some reflecting on direction, motivation, chaos and commitment.  Spent some time reflecting on the last 3 months.  Lots of great things have happened and I know there is more to come.

Reminded today not to judge a book by its cover.  That everyone has a story, even those that appear to have it “all together.”  That we need to stop and make a difference today, not wait until a better time presents itself.  Reminded to let go of the past and move forward, even if that means you leave behind others that just are not ready to make the move, resting in the fact that each of us must choice for ourselves how to live our lives.  That the only person you have control over is yourself so instead of talking about “it” DO “IT”!

Lots to process from today so for tonight I will enjoy a light supper and some hot tea and off to bed I go.

Tomorrow is another day.

Summertime Simple

Day 89 Project 365

So beautiful today.  Spent the day at the ocean.  I wish I could live on the water.  Simple and slow days.  I love the slow pace of summer and long for the end of school so we can move into that rhythm.

I pulled out some summer time recipes this afternoon.  Time for grilling and berries and frozen treats.  What better for getting ready for summer than a frozen yogurt pie.

So simple yet so yummy.

I like to use Kroger’s Carb Smart yogurt (2 containers), 1 8 oz sugar-free cool whip, 1 graham cracker crust and about 1 1/2 ups of fresh or frozen fruit (whatever you like depending on the type of yogurt you use)

Simply mix it all together and pour into graham cracker crust and freeze until about 15-20 mins before you are ready to serve it.

Off to relax some now and spend some quiet time while the boy’s head to baseball.  Going to work on my recipe project and sip some iced tea.

Beautiful Blogger Award!

Day 88 Project 365

A fellow blogger nominated me for a the Beautiful Blogger Award.

Thank you so much to Anna at Anna’s One Life blog for this honor.  I am honored that you considered me for a nomination.  I am thankful that the healing I am experiencing writing this blog is also touching others.

Now for my part:

Dear “Beautiful Blogger” Award Winners:  You inspire me.  Your words are beautiful, thus the reason you’re receiving this award.  It is now your job to pass this award on to seven (or less) other bloggers along with links to their blogs.  Post the award and provide a link back to the person who nominated you. Thank you for making a difference in my life.  Keep writing!

My nominations for “Beautiful Blogger” Awards are:

Liz Mason – Organizing the Inside Your blog inspires me every day.  Thank you for sharing truth and bring light into my day.

The Better Man Project   Your words inspire and make me think.  Thank you!

Made With Purpose Thank you for sharing the things on your heart.

A Display Of His Splendor Thank you for your encouragement.

Diet Coke and Candy Your journey and the honesty with which you blog about it is refreshing and encouraging.  Thank you!

There is power in the written word.  It is freeing to put pen to paper (or in this case fingers to keyboard) and commit your deepest most intimate thoughts to print. Words tell a story. MY story.  YOUR story.  We all have one to tell.  In sharing our stories we allow others to experience life with us.  In that experience are highs and lows, laughter and healing. 

Thank you to all those that blog every day.  I could have nominated hundreds of people today.  Thank you for sharing a glimpse into your world with the rest of us.



Short and Sweet

Day 87 Project 365

Today was a long day. Just getting home and settled in.  Short and sweet tonight.

I am thankful.

I am thankful today for the place God has me in.  I am learning new things and experiencing new things.  I am thankful for my family and friends, the new people I am meeting and the opportunity that God has for me each new day.

I am especially thankful today for my amazing children.  All 5 handpicked just for me.  What a true blessing they are to be each and every day.

Tonight I have a full heart.

Good night!

Step away from the chaos

Day 86 Project 365

Today is a beautiful day.  Sun high in the sky and only a few clouds here and there.  Although it was cooler today it was a picture perfect day.

As I continue to move forward in my journey I have been really trying to remove the things that do not add value and replace those things with good, healthy and right choices, people, places and things.  I have been trying very hard to be proactive and less chaotic.  I have been working on setting goals and not procrastinating or avoiding as a coping device.

So many good fruits are coming forth right now, so many positives and still the Lord is continuing to fine tune and point some things out to me.  I am learning to define why I feel the ways I feel and really dig into my feelings as opposed to going through the motions which usually means I am not thinking things through, I am being persuaded by things I will later regret, I am reacting instead of taking the time to think and then act with purpose.

One of the things I am continuing to work on is walking away from the chaos.  The best example is a troubled relationship that I have to deal with every day.  I can only do my part.  The chaos that is happening at this point is not mine.  I can get wrapped up in it faster than I can blink or I can control ME and reflect and then act.  The more I am doing that the more freedom I am experiencing.  Yesterday in my quiet time the Lord prompted my thoughts towards other areas where there is a tendency towards chaos and as I prayed over these areas He was faithful to bring scriptures and clarity to them.

I sit tonight and watch as the shadows move across my yard and the sun begins to set.  I might sound like a broken record but I am in awe of what God has done in my life over these past 86 days.  I am so thankful that as 2011 came to a close my life didn’t end.  I am so thankful that the truth started to unfold, emerge and is setting me free.

Tonight I know am thankful that as a work in progress I am stepping out and moving on in purpose and I have never felt so alive as I do right now.


Isaiah 32:17 The fruit of that righteousness will be peace;  its effect will be quietness and confidence forever.

Jeremiah 17: 7-8 7 “But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD,  whose confidence is in him. 8 They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes;    its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought    and never fails to bear fruit.”


Here comes the rain

Day 85 Project 365

(Had to go back and correct my numbers on my days this morning.  Some where along the way I doubled days and so I was off.  :O) We are 85 days into 2012.)

Holy thunder and lightning last night.  WOW!  For a while at least all the pollen has been washed away.  We needed the rain!

There have been times in my life I pray for the rain to go away.  The rain starts and seems like it will be nothing but turns into a storm of ragging water, rushing wind and I feel as though my boat will sink.   This rain comes from no where and if I don’t keep my eyes focused could easily cause me to drown.  The rain that brings the crash of thunder and dangerous lightning.  Then there is the rain that comes and seems to wash away and refresh.  Sometimes the rain doesn’t come and things are so dry and wither away and die.  Sometimes we beg for rain even just a drop to cool the day, remove the sting of heat and quench our thirst.  Then there is the rain that comes and nourishes and makes things grow.  The rain that is a shower of blessings.  The rain that comes when the sun is shining and leaves behind a rainbow of promise.

I was reading in Zechariah 10 today….1 Pray to God for rain—it’s time for the spring rain— to God, the rainmaker, Spring thunderstorm maker, maker of grain and barley. (Msg)  It takes about the rain, about God restoring what was scattered and lost and Gods rebuilding.  It talks of God restoring and making strong.

I am thankful for the rain.  For the rain that brought me to my knees and to acknowledge my need for God.  The rain that washed away the dust and dirt and brought truth and promise.  The rain that falls and makes me new.

And as a reminder when I am in those hard places-

Isaiah 43

The Message (MSG)

Isaiah 43

When You’re Between a Rock and a Hard Place

1-4But now, God’s Message, the God who made you in the first place, Jacob, the One who got you started, Israel: “Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you.  I’ve called your name. You’re mine. When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you. When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place, it won’t be a dead-end— Because I am God, your personal God, The Holy of Israel, your Savior. I paid a huge price for you: all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in! That’s how much you mean to me! That’s how much I love you! I’d sell off the whole world to get you back, trade the creation just for you.5-7“So don’t be afraid: I’m with you. I’ll round-up all your scattered children, pull them in from east and west. I’ll send orders north and south: ‘Send them back. Return my sons from distant lands, my daughters from faraway places. I want them back, every last one who bears my name, every man, woman, and child Whom I created for my glory, yes, personally formed and made each one.'”

8-13Get the blind and deaf out here and ready— the blind (though there’s nothing wrong with their eyes) and the deaf (though there’s nothing wrong with their ears). Then get the other nations out here and ready.  Let’s see what they have to say about this, how they account for what’s happened. Let them present their expert witnesses    and make their case; let them try to convince us what they say is true. “But you are my witnesses.” God’s Decree.  You’re my handpicked servant So that you’ll come to know and trust me, understand both that I am and who I am. Previous to me there was no such thing as a god, nor will there be after me.  I, yes I, am God. I’m the only Savior there is. I spoke, I saved, I told you what existed  long before these upstart gods appeared on the scene. And you know it, you’re my witnesses, you’re the evidence.” God’s Decree. “Yes, I am God. I’ve always been God and I always will be God. No one can take anything from me. I make; who can unmake it?”